"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was hurricane."

i know its going to be a bad situation, but i am going to tell all of them I like 'em. Maybe no one will notice x:

Well, I haven't written in a while. I don't know, I have been meaning to write but I never got a chance to until now. Well, I'm getting a Nikon D40. I am so excited.

i could follow you to the beginning & just relive the start. Maybe then we'll remember to slow down to all of our favorite parts


i remember when i was little(in first or second grade), i had the biggest crush on this kid. it was valentine's day and he never asked me to be his valentine. when i got out of school, my daddy was waiting outside with a sutffed bear and gave it to me for Valentine's day. now that i think of it, it made me happy. i just don't know how much i actually appreciated it, though.

i remember after my first show of The Nutcracker, my mom and dad came running toward me while crying from tears of happiness. it was the first time i ever saw my dad cry.

i remember when i was hanging out with mike, i told him i was tired and that my legs hurt since i was sitting awkwardly. he pulled me in and let me fall asleep on him.

i remember when i first saw paramore perform, my heart was beating so fucking fast. they were my favorite band at the time and i wanted to meet josh farro so bad. i used to have the biggest crush on him, aha.

i remember one phone call i had with sarah k. i was so sleepy but i managed to tell her she was such a good friend because she actually cared about me although we were far away.

i remember once, we had to draw a shoe. i was so determined to draw to the best of my ability. i did really well, but my friend claimed it as hers to show her parents. sweet life.

once, i saw Attack Attack live, so FUCKING good. i ended up going fucking crazy, but i got hurt x:

i'm 15

I think I'm losing the one person in my life who I really care about over a stupid prick.
wow, i'm FUCKING cool for being indecisive.

i'm so weak and dependent, it's pathetic.

here's an update of my life;

• i stopped being friends with misty because she smoked at my party and it was disrespectful and she didnt even fucking apologize. fucking bitch needs to get over herself
• im pretty sure my dad is doing something scandalous behind my mom's back, as usual.
• i moshed for the first time at my party, which was fun
• i dont care what anyone says, I'M FUCKING DYING MY HAIR GOD DAMNIT
• I NEED MY FUCKING WARPED TOUR TICKET, and one for three other people
• i need to decide whether i want bangs or not. i miss them but i htink i look better with longer bangs
• hypocrites want me to stab myself in the eyes
• i love zackkk ! my mom doesn't
• I WANNA SEE NICK OMG ):
• I WANNA SEE NICK REALLLY BAD D:
• i got my first sunburn. ever.
• once i hit 15, im forcing my friend to bring me to pierce my industrial. it's so fucking bad ass
• MY FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT IS BIG WIGGLY STYLE. BR00TAL
• uh i like poop and will probably have it tattooed on my ass one day with a hangover.

PEACE

so i can fangirl over him lolol. haha and guess what(: i love man overboard.

Iran-Tehren
Algeria-Algiers
Sudan-Kharoum
Libya-Tripoli
Afghanistan-Kabul
Pakistan-Islamabad
Indonesia-Jakarta
China-Beijing
India-New Delhi
North Korea- P'yongyang
Japan-Tokyo
Vietnam-Hanoi
Sri Lanka-Colombo
Australia-Canberra
Bhutan-Thimb
Russia-Moscow
New Zealand-Wellington
Congo-Brazzaville
Dem. Rep. of Congo-Kinshasa
Ethiopia-Addis Ababa
Botswana-Limpopo
Liberia-Monorovia
Kenya-Nairobi
Rwanda-Kigali
Morocco-Rabat
South Africa-Cape Town
Estonia-Tallinn
Romania-Bucharest
Portugul-Lisbon
Ireland-Dublin
Croatis-Zagreb
Greece-Athens
Iceland-Reykajavik
Lithuania-Vilnius
Poland-Warsaw
Finland-Helsinki
Denmark-Copenhagen
England-London
Czech Republic-Prague
Switzerland-Bern
Norway-Osio

and United Arab Emirates

China – Beijing
North Korea – Seoul
Philippines – Manila
South Korea – Pyong Yang
Japan – Tokyo
Cambodia – Phnom Penh
Thailand – Bangkok
Malaysia – Kuala Lumpur
Laos – Veintam
Indonesia – Jakarta
Vietnam – Hanoi
Myanmar – Yungori
Yemen – San’aa
Syria – Damascus
Qatar – Dona
Iraq – Baghdad
Lebanon – Beirut
Bahrain – Manana
Iran – Tehran
United Arab Emirates – Abu Dhabi
Pakistan – Islamabad
Algeria – Algiers
Afghanistan – Kabul
Saudi Arabia – Riyadh
Turkey – Ankara
Jordan – Amman
Switzerland – Bern
Slovenia – Ljubljana
Macedonia – Skopje
Norway – Oslo
Hungary – Budapest
Czech Republic – Prague
Finland – Helsinki
Iceland – Reykjavik
Latvia – Riga
Bosnia-Herzegovina – Sarajevo
Denmark – Copenhagen
India – New Delhi
Sri Lanka – Colombo
Australia – Canberra
Russia – Moscow
New Zealand – Wellington
Congo – Brazzaville
Democratic Republic of the Congo – Kinshasa
Sudan – Khartoum

I'm thinking Im going to wear this for my quinceanera:
- white sparkly converse
- a tiara
- annie's dress
:D!

it just hit me TOMORROW IS FUCKING FINALS and I barley know half the shit that I studied.


FUCK YOU, YOU LITTLE FUCKING WORTHLESSSPATHETICWHORE this is not regarding toward st. julie, lmao)

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD I WANT ONE RIGHT NOW D: !
i wish school taught you how to deal with shit.


Back in school they never taught us
what we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
or someone breaking your heart
For fourteen years I've held it all together
but a night like this is begging to pull me apart
I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen
I remember I kept thinking
that I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you
like only a best friend could

Everyone's caught on to everything you do

As if it happening wasn't enough
I got to go and write a song
just to remind myself how bad it sucked
Ignore the sun, covers over my head
Wrote a message on my pillow that says
"Rachelle, stay asleep in bed"
Don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!)
Search your cell for something which to hang yourself
They say you need to pray
if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to Hell!

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)

So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever

pierce her nose. lol omg thank God.

that practically 3/4 of my friends want to kill themselves. Thanks for fucking telling me that, I definitely fucking need more people to commit suicide.

i wanna marry this kid.

[19:14] haiii rachelle: i missss youuuu!
[19:14] dakingokbling: i miss you too
[19:14] dakingokbling: <3